Category Archives: Sketching

Day 45 – My Bloody Valentine…..

What do you do you do when a someone drops a ton of bricks on you?… You build a wall… In this case a wall around your heart… One of those names probably has more than one brick…

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Normally valentines day doesn’t affect me… But for some reason today I have felt pretty damn alone, it’s been building all week… Every day this week my phone has remained resolutely silent… My doorway has no delivery man holding a bunch of roses, and the letterbox holds only envelopes asking for cash… I know I shouldn’t expect anything… and then I wouldn’t be feeling like I am now…

 

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Day 16 – Things I hate….

In this case are persistence, practice and patience… because they are those things that people tell you to do, to get better… Obviously!!!… It also annoys me that it took me so long to develop the attention span of an adult human instead of 12 week old kitten… Oh look something shiny!!!…

This realization (that really isn’t one), came to me today as I continued with carving up the old school desk… I have been methodical and patient, and even though I am just winging it (ie no instructions), and annoyingly my progress has been quite rapid…

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I am sure if I use a stencil to lay down the designs, instead of free handing them, I might actually be happy with the finished product… and I am never happy with the finished product… You know those people who can do something in a half-assed way and in their mind it is perfect? I am not that person… In fact I often stare at amazement at them as they proudly show off their latest creations… Somedays I think I would swap half my ability for half of there self confidence… Or maybe that is what they did?

So I will continue with carving, as I find quite relaxing, a kind of meditation with sawdust… The other thing I need to do is open Pandora’s Box, well the trunk in the corner anyway… It has all my tattoo equipment stored inside, and it has been staring at me….

I think it is time to open the collection of boxes I have kept locked… Maybe they were locked till I was ready to handle what was inside? The universe is like that…

Day 2 – Welcome to the Cafe Embargo…

Coffee shops are off the menu for a while… They cause three problems (for me) , firstly they spend my money, secondly they make me want to smoke and lastly they stop me spending time with my children… In fact if I was going to name a couple of factors that featured in the demise of my marriage, I would blame smoking and cafés… Oh sure there are a list of other reasons that people would point out, but as usual they would be wrong… People often underestimate the interconnected nature of things, and mock the hurricane inducing butterflies that lurk on the other side of the world…  Or maybe my ability to track back every outcome to a single event is what keeps me hovering on the edge of depression and destined to be alone… Just a thought?…

Anyway, my original  point is I am avoiding coffee shops, to save cash and avoid the temptation to smoke. this no coffee shop thing required the purchase of one those coffee pod things… Which I did on the last day of 2013, so doesn’t count towards the whole buy nothing new thing (I know a bit cheaty)… But today I actually had my first coffee from it, and drank it on my pretend cafe on the verandah..  And it wasn’t to bad, and it didn’t cost me $5 and a trip to town, so all good there…

On other battle fronts of this year long challenge, the kids are being a bit French about the new heavily restricted video game time, after a few protests they have folded like a cheap tent… They are upstairs at the moment making bead necklaces, and reading books… Odd pastimes that require no batteries and cause my son to behave in strange ways, be all calm and chatting for example… The tv didn’t even go on till late afternoon, and that was only because I wanted to watch a documentary…

The hour of arty stuff a day is surprisingly the one challenge that is causing me the most trouble, and maybe I will have to reconsider leaving it till after dinner? I only just managed an hour yesterday, and I had to include the 20 minutes I spent making glitter stickers with my daughter to get there…

The morning walk will hopefully become easier… I suspect it is still the lingering muscle strain from all the furniture juggling is making me feel like I am trudging along in gumboots full of porridge…

So tonight I am reading a few books for artistic inspiration… I am going to count that as being arty today, as nicotine withdrawal seems to be making me sleepy not moody… Which is probably a good thing, but means pen to paper will have to happen earlier in the day….

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In other news I am still waiting for two boxes of books I ordered last week, to arrive… One includes a book on quitting smoking, hope I don’t need it by the time it gets here… Some of the other titles are a bit scary, and I suspect are more of an window on my mind than I would like to admit… The other may or may not contain one or more books on dating the second time around etc, and they are now causing me angst from the post office waiting room they lurk in at the moment… So when those titles arrive  I might wrap them in an old jumper, then in an old suitcase and lower it into the cellar for a while, just to be safe…

UPDATE – Just as I was writing that last paragraph I received an email telling me one box of books is on its way….

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Following on from the idea “I like your old stuff better” I am going back to some pictures that I like the idea of, if the not execution…. I quite like the idea of the girl fading into the background “wallflower” thing… So I am going to see if I can combine old skills, new skills and an old idea…..

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So I am doing my “quick” sketch bit first…. and then maybe the inky crosshatching will start….. She is looking a Disney at the moment, hopefully that goes away as I work the image….

 

 

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I like your old stuff better….

Very very very unwell yesterday….. Spent most of yesterday, and the night sweating and in pain…. Not sure if it was a 24hour flu, or I had managed to poison myself? but I am feeling much better today…. Before the un-wellness I did manage to finish the drawing I was working on….

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Trying to combine the new quick sketchy stuff with my older sit around for ages cross-hatching thing….. I am slowly getting the patience required back…

10 days without a cigarette, and another kilo down….but that could be due to being unwell…. haven’t even had any nicotine replacement stuff in the past day…. Starting to feel much clearer in the head… and the lungs… I was going to go out for a drive and take some photos today, but the weather is dreadful… So I might stay home and thin out the junk in my house….

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